Long time...

I haven't blogged in forever it feels..but that doesn't surprise me, time is just flying away..It's almost November which crazy enough just means we're getting closer to a new year, a much needed new year..not that I am complaining a lot of good has come out of this year, mixed with quite a bit of bad but anyways...heres an update..

I am alive, and well..My aunt is still here, her house hasn't even began getting repaired yet. A coworker left about two weeks ago, I don't even know if thats accurate I have lost track of time, I swear, but it was sad to see her leave, after three months you get used to the same faces and consider it your 'work family' haha or something like that, not that I saw her A LOT but still..she started when I did and I don't know it was sad, but I hope for the best for her. I have been really busy between school, and work..I miss blogging, and I always think about blogging but just never get around to it..I feel so stressed out lately, I have a lab practical tomorrow for Biology...I have been studying all day like crazy, and I don't know if its selfish to ask the lord to be on my side tomorrow..In better news my mom and I are supposed to go to the mountains we're leaving Sunday, and coming back Tuesday, short lived but hopefully well worth it, and some time to just get away from it all, well not away from it all because I will bringing my laptop, and my practice test for my math test for Wednesday, I don't know when, or if it will stop...but we can hope right? I feel like as I type this, it is completely mono-tone, it's ridiculous, I just want some time to be able to relax and not think about a test, or exam, just a moment to breathe and not cram in studying :(...other than that nothing new really has happened, not amazing, or drastic...my brother put my name in for a drawing at work for a car, which honestly I wish he hadn't, but you never know...anyways so the drawing is tomorrow and I decided since I haven't looked at my horoscope in a really long time I would, and I didn't find much, just the usual kind of horoscopey (not a word lol) things, but there was a thing that said "maybe its time for some good karma since you have been so generous" or something along those lines...and all I could think is really? when you give and are generous you aren't to expect anything in return, despite the times that I slip up and say "well I did this for you.." or "I bought you this" I completely despise when I do that...I feel so guilty after..but I don't know we'll see what happens, I don't except to be a car richer tomorrow lol, although I won't lie it would be kind of nice? haha. Also, I was talking about time flying with my aunt and she said, you've just been so busy so everything seems to go by much faster, but at work I talked to a lady who said "the older you get the faster time flies" but I am convinced its just this year...Anyways I should be getting some sleep for this practical tomorrow rather then blogging, see this is what it comes to when I blog...Rest > Blogging...thats why I end up going a while without a blog..

Praying anyone that reads this is having a less stressful time, and that their time is going a little bit slower than mine...good night :).

It's Been TOO Long...

As the title states..haha but I have been busy, I have been trying to balance everything, and these next two days are hectic...Early morning mall trip, full blown studying the rest of the after noon til' 5, then off to take an exam at school..Then Thursday is my hair appointment, I am still not even sure what I really want, I am just going to go with it, and pray it comes out good, which I'm sure it probably will be fine, or I am hoping. I haven't had my hair done in years, literally, so it will be a nice luxury, I am trying to think of the last time I did my hair I think it was 2 months ago, like a week or so after I started working...so I am excited to get my roots covered up, finally have a nice hair color, and highlights...ohh geez, and not to mention getting these dead ends off finally..but more importantly I am hoping my mini shopping trip tomorrow ( I know I was talking about money in my last blog but I got everything under control ) :] I assume that will bring my sanity to my stresses about this test, or I hope so at least...

Less stress when your shopping right??

Realizing The Real Depth...

Have you ever had one of those days where something seems to appear more than once? And no I'm not talking about deja-vu...I am talking about something, an item that you think is cute, and then you see it again later somewhere completely random..or maybe that isn't a good enough example, maybe you hear a song on the radio that means absolutely nothing to you..and then later that day you hear it again somewhere else, and suddenly you hear the words, and it means the complete opposite of nothing...well anyways I guess for me it was neither of those particular scenarios..actually it played out sort of in  a vague manner, I over heard my mom specifically saying to her friend 'everything always works out...' which I know, all of my life I have lived by that saying..I know the depth, and meaning or at least I thought I did...and then later today as I finally got to sit down and just relax, my me time, without anyone around, I logged onto Pinterest...and I saw it immediately...so I thought well gee thats funny..and then it kind of hit me..I know I love, advise, and live by this quote but do I ever take a minute out of my day and think about it fully and thoroughly..well I did today..and it felt really good, no matter how bad a situation may be, it always works out for the better..even if it takes time to realize it, or even just a few relaxing minutes to yourself..but the reality of that particular quote just seems so reassuring.. and for more inspiring things to say...I have been doing a lot of money evaluating, for myself..and all I can think is I will get better with money, I won't blow through it, I will get my priorities out of the way etc etc...and I have been saying this for a year, and even though everything always works out, its like..sometimes may be I need to take a step out of my comforter zone and really put fourth the effort I want to put fourth and do something accomplishing with my money, rather than buying materialistic things..thats the logical thing to do right? But as I have been telling everyone I am going to take care of my priorities, building credit etc..here I am buying Christmas presents early, and buying little things here and there for myself, you know and iPhone 5 -sighs-..its like I completely void everything I ever said..forget..don't care whatever it is..and today my brother gave me a fourtune cookie..I always found it next to creepy how sometimes they can really relate to your life, but anyways.. mine said 'be both a speaker of words, and a doer of deeds' and as much as I want to say fate had me read that...I can't help but think in the back of my mind why can't I actually be this way? So I am seriously assessing and prioritizing my life right now..I need a true goal and accomplishment completed..I want to vow/promise myself to not buy anything that I don't actually SERIOUSLY need...and hopefully i will be BOTH a speaker of words and a doer of deeds..:)

Attempting to change my money-spending problem..attempting to fully comprehend and relate to all these little signs and quotes that seem to fall in my way, occasionally or daily..I want to take everything in from a more open minded perspective in the sense of not only changing my ways, but paving a new beginning, oh I sound so corny right now...but really...even though I am open-minded I think everyone could use an even more open-mind..which doesn't really make sense to most I am sure but the ones it does makes sense to is what matters most...:)

It's Been Awhile...

First I want to say I didn't realize that outfit idea thing from Polyvore posted...hahah so that was a surprise, I've been kind of organizing what I want to buy for fall fashion, and I am definitely loving the burgundy jeggings, with leopard/cheetah print, or a basic tank with a cardigan or blazer...but anyways I figured I would kind of update where I have been, why I haven't posted, whats going on etc etc...but I don't even know where to start hahaha...
I guess I'll start with updating on my tragus piercing..its doing good, I think its healing really well, it doesn't hurt, it can feel a little tender if I were to touch it to hard or what ever...but I'm still cleaning it the same, so thats good :)..but anyways I haven't been posting blogs lately..which is weird that this is my first real blog in September..it always feels like I just said its another month, like not that long ago haha, and I guess since my aunt, and little cousin get up earlier than I normally do, it wakes me and then my days feel super long considering I don't go to bed till later, but yeah my days have been feeling LLLOOONNNGGG..but however I worked last Saturday, and Sunday...and that was fine except on Saturday I had a really bad sore throat, it went away Sunday, but by Sunday night I had gotten a full blown cold..so basically all last week I stayed in bed, did homework, and when I was on the internet I was looking for fall clothes and things that I am planning on getting, which when I do (sometime next week) I will be doing a blog..so since nothing exciting was going on I didn't feel like blogging, and I was sick, and words couldn't express how bad I felt...anyways so all that happened and that was the main source of why I hadn't been blogging, and I must advise anyone who does get sick to never go to school..seriously its terrible, I wanted to just run out on Wednesday, honestly. But moving right along Friday morning I had class, I got out early, I don't know if I mentioned my mom and I are taking that together, but if I haven't now I have lol..but we got out early and my aunt had continuously sent my mom texts..to make a long long long story short, and save tons of details..my aunt had a company come out for an upgrade..and they accidentally cut or hit or whatever they did the main water pipe, and basically her house flooded and ceilings fell, and just a terrible event, so I offered my room to her and my little cousin so they didn't have to go through the trouble of dealing with a different home, that may have been a hassle for his school, and everything..so that put me on the couch, and I have been wanting to blog but blogging on the couch just doesn't feel right which is funny to me...but whatever I am dealing with it and doing it anyways..so pretty much there are six of us in this house, her animals, our animals, and evidently this could last anywhere from a month till Thanksgiving, or thats what she heard..so my point being its been such a hectic week, and on top of that suddenly I had a terrible tooth ache, where a filling is, and this would be the second filling to I don't know erupt? hahah ugh but it has been horrible, luckily I still had some amoxocillin to kind of calm it until I can go to the dentist, and actually it took away a lot of the pain..I mean I could easily go to the dentist but, since I just got my tragus done, the actual ortho place where they deal with this makes you take out any earrings..and even though the pain was unbearable this morning, I am not going to take out a piercing I paid out of pocket for to fix it...I know that sounds stupid but honestly..I think I'll take my chances unless I feel the amoxocillin isn't working until it is healed...but yeah so basically I am praying everything will just get a little better..not that much is bad, but between being sick, a tooth ache, and adjusting to the couch I feel I deserve a little miracle or something...oh thats selfish :(....

Getting back in the habit of blogging again, oh I have missed this...haha ;)

FALL 1

FALL 1 by keacret featuring skinny fit jeans

River Island brown top, $32 / Skinny fit jeans / Black flat shoes / Jane Norman clutch handbag, $24 / White jewelry / Essie glitter nail polish

♡ My Tragus Piercing Experience ♡

Before I begin this blog I want to first clarify a few things..starting with my personal pain tolerance...I'm not really good with pain by any means i'd say my pain tolerance on a scale of 1-10 would probably be a 3-4 haha..My first tattoo was horrid pain..although my second didn't hurt at all, I don't know if its because I went through a horrid pain the first time or just the location..But I am not good with needles either..I get sweaty,anxious, hot, thirsty, and light headed..so keep that in mind when reading this, and one other thing is typically the tragus piercing is done with a 16 gauge..mine was done with a 13 gauge needle, which is a bit bigger, I'll talk more about that down below..

The Gauge Size-
So just to kind of explain why I ended up with a 13 gauge needle as opposed to a 16 gauge, initially she asked me if I wanted a flat back stud, or a hoop, I already knew I wanted a flat back stud, and unfortunately she only had a 14 gauge stud left..I was just like sure why not..haha considering I already had my mind set on a stud, and not a hoop...but anyways so she told me she was going to use a 13 gauge needle since the 14 gauge fits the best in that without any problems, although I would have preferred a smaller ball, I can deal with this until it heals :)..so that kind of sums up the reasoning behind that, and here is a picture that isn't mine of gauge needle sizes just so you can see the difference..

The Pain- 
Personally for me it wasn't all that bad, the bad part was that my anxiety with needles made me uncomfortably nervous, and anxious, I was hot...like really hot sweating hot hahaha..but anyways she went over the full procedure of what she was going to do, how it may feel, etc..then she clamped my tragus, which she said some people think is the worst, it didn't bother me at all..like it didn't feel bad..anyways she told me to take a deep breath, she put the needle through, and then told me to exhale and it was over...it didn't hurt maybe a little pinch, and a slight sting, on a scale of 1-5 i'd say maybe 2.5-3 just because of the stinging, and pinch haha..although I have no other needle piercing to compare it to, I have had my lobes, (two holes) done with a gun which is nothing, and I have had my upper/middle of ear pierced with a gun which didn't hurt either, you can probably see the location of that in the picture i post...but the tragus  didn't hurt, it didn't hurt bad enough to bring tears, or anything..and it didn't take long, the only thing that took any amount of time was when she had to screw on the ball she couldn't get it, but thats besides the point...haha

Cleaning Procedure-

I'm assuming every piercer has there own little perk, and procedure, hers personally was simple..she said buy a non-fragrence, anti bacterial soap..preferably Dial, wash your hands, use a Q-tip/cotton swab whatever you like to call it..put hot water on it, get any "crusties" off, put a good amount of the soap on a Q-tip, or your fingers and clean it that way, and move the jewelry back and fourth so it gets in the pericing , then either get another Q-tip, and put more hot water to get the soap off, or just take a shower after..which ever, so yeah pretty simple, also dry it with a cotton swab, I don't think she mentioned that but I did it anyways... It did sting a little when I did it, she said it probably will for the first 3 days or so, but it didn't hurt super bad or anything, it felt a little weird when I was moving the jewelry, I was actually scared to like for whatever reason I thought it might fall out or something weird, but it didn't, and it didn't hurt too bad, or after..

Sleeping With A New Tragus Piercing-

She told me to change my pillow cases and what not, because you don't realize how much bacteria and germs are on your pillow cases, she said don't sleep on it..so although I haven't slept yet with it I am going to do as she said, I am also going to wear my hair up to sleep, at least for a few days just so my hair doesn't get all in/on the piercing, she didn't specify that but I think that makes sense haha.

How It Felt Through Out The Day & Now-

Right after getting it, honestly it just felt like pressure, it wasn't too bad, not painful or anything..then it kind of faded and then occasionally id feel a little bit of pressure again..so like I said not bad at all..and now it feels like nothing really..no pressure, and this is after cleaning it. 

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Class #2, Target Splurge, Tragus Piercing

Alright alright, so I had to get up early this morning for Bio class, it was good, the professors really nice, once again she said its a hard class the average percentage that passes is 48% so thats always great news (sarcasm haha), but it was really good, and I am really glad I only have two classes this semester, once a week..BUT more importantly after class I had a Target splurge, those are always great haha, they had some really good clothing buys...I bought a nice robin egg blue kind of color shirt, new jeggings :), a new black cardigan long sleeved for the fall/winter time, I bought a new black shirt for work, and some rose goldish color sandals which are adorable..surprising just that cost $102 :( sheesh TarJay..hahah..but anyways I did get my tragus pierced, after I clean it tonight I will be posting a 'my tragus piercing experience' for anyone that is considering getting it, or just curious..so that will be up sometime tonight..and as for tomorrow it's going to be another early morning/long day, I work the evening shift tomorrow, and Sunday, which is fine..and then Monday and Tuesday I am spending all day doing homework and such..but yeah look forward to my tragus post shortly, or if you're reading this other than today it is located above ;)...