Huge blog (5days later)

I can't even decide where I want to start this blog, I feel like I have so much to say....I guess I'll start with work...

Thursday was a good day, everyone is so nice, its great when everyone has a nice demeanor honestly...so it was good learned how to close, easy enough...
Friday was my first day on my own closing, it was fine a little busy, pretty easy, so it was overall pretty good, until I felt completely overwhelmed when I got home, I don't even know why...I just felt really stressed out for some unknown reason..
Saturday wasn't the best honestly...I had to get up early to go take a test before opening at work, I had to rush through my final exam (thankfully I passed the class), I got to work almost late but I wasn't :), I'm sure you see where this is going, it was a very slow day, I had to go restock the chips after we opened so I had to put the little sign up. Before work I got a huge coffee with a shot of espresso hoping that'd do the trick and keep me semi alive, but by the time 1 came around I had to pee so bad, I was trying to hold it until the other girl got there but I couldn't so I had to put up the sign again, I felt really guilty, and like I said it was slow so it wasn't the best day..
Sunday was a good day overall, I closed again, it was pretty slow too but I had more to do, I had to put up the promo jewelry so it kept me busy, and I had a couple customers but still not enough..
Its funny though there was a guy who came in on Saturday to buy some flowers, and he stopped in on Sunday and called me his girlfriend (cute right?) haha he was older I thought it was pretty funny, then I had a pervy come in and say something along the lines of "if you were my nurse i'd..." and I kind of blocked out anything he said after that although it was funny, I just remotely laughed it off typical me...and then I had a guy walk by (we are located right in the front of the hospital entrance) I smile at everyone that walks by, just because, lol but anyways the guy walks by and walks back just to say "you have a very nice smile" it was really nice of him...kind of made my week? lol.

Work has totally "turned me on" to cold play, we listen to the two radio stations that play a mix of music, and all weekend I heard cold play (the music keeps me sane on slow days) but the lyrics just have stuck so I have been listening to cold play frequently which isn't usually my forte but the lyrics are really...I don't even think I could describe it, just nice, and its like relaxing music anyways...

I finished the first Fifty Shades Of Grey, I teared up at the end, it was the like the total reality of how it is with men and women's mentalities...but anyways I am now reading Fifty Shades Darker, the second book, and I am actually anxious to read it tonight, ugh am I really finding an escape of my own reality though this book? I am assuming so hahah.

Is it luck, fate, both, or neither?


Yesterday I was talking to a friend about life...and I am a firm believer in 'everything happens for a reason', 'good things happen to those who wait', and of course 'fate will bring you to your destiny'...he completely disregarded all of things I said in what I believe...but its the reality of it...when someone tells me a story or I hear a story about how they decided not to go somewhere and something bad ended up happening, or someone goes somewhere and meets someone unexpectedly, for some reason I just know we have a plan whether or not it is completely mapped out so to speak, or if it just happens to build up in the moment, obviously I don't know but its weird how things work, its weird that we don't get a job we really wanted, but eventually we find a job (or whatever it is) that is absolutely perfect...or how we feel like we love someone who feels completely opposite...and eventually when you meet the right person both feelings are mutual...its weird thats why I say everything happens for a reason, good things happen for a reason, and fate will bring us to our destiny..thats why I try not to dwell on falling in love, or anything anymore if its in my plan, or meant to be it will be...despite everything. And I do believe in some sort of luck but I haven't quite figured that out at all..haha.

I can never get over how people think its completely OK to abuse financial assistance either, I know this a completely different out of no where topic, but really...People actually work hard for their money while others get it for free, I understand if you are disabled, but if you just chose not to bite the bullet and find a job there is a problem...sometimes you have to sacrifice it all or nothing especially if you have a family, and a home, getting two part time jobs is possible sometimes there are dead end jobs I get that, but also sometimes there are things you have to do like swallow your pride so you don't have to abuse the system, I mean really...usually the people that sacrifice things end up with some sort of light at the end of the tunnel, aka a miracle, and of course sometimes not...which leads me to another point one time I thought about the old famous 'why do good things happen to bad people'...but I came to the conclusion if its over subjective things, objects, men etc...they're all easy to grasp if I wanted it bad enough I'd have what the 'bad' people have as well...but sometimes people have higher standards then others and better things going for them to worry about trying to get what others have...I don't even know where I am going with this, let alone if it will even make any sense but whatever lol..


I'm going to end the blog here...hopefully i'll blog more the next few days since I don't have to work for a few days!!! leaving you with some cold play encouragement "lights will guide you home" "could it be worse", probably the best question to ask yourself when things are tough, "you don't know how lovely you are", "lets go back to the start", "nobody said it was easy", as you can see I only used two songs but..anyways maybe one of these will relate to you, encourage you, or make your day. :)

Sinking In

I am beginning to feel extremely overwhelmed, nervous, and anxious all at once...Tomorrow is my last day accompanied by anyone at work...then its just me Friday, and Saturday :/ I am nervous I will mess up, forget something, or not know how to properly do a transaction on gift cards...so tomorrow is my day to get every last bit in, I won't be with the manager, and I only have 3 hours tomorrow to get it all..ugh I am anxious to get Friday done and over with...just so I feel comfortable Saturday, I learned more today, and I felt like I did better...Friday is a 6 hour shift, I will probably be on the phone with the manager a good percentage of the time just so I make sure I am doing everything accurately, on another note...Saturday is a 3 hour shift, :) AND opening is easy so I shouldn't have any problems..or I hope not...this is a job, and if I mess up it could be the end of it, I am not trying to think negatively at all but sometimes it is just so hard to keep positive when you are feeling all of these things at once, but I am keeping my composure and staying as positive as I can...I will be praying tonight that everything goes smoothly for Friday and Saturday, and I need to finish getting all of my shifts written down because I may just be working Sunday too, for all I know lol...
It is exciting though knowing I am learning so much in a two-three day increment, I feel proud of myself just because I can properly run a register, clock in clock out, I know the rules, cashing in cashing out, the different methods we have, and of course getting used to all of the items, and prices, oh and where everything is located.. AND I only have 5 chapters left of Fifty Shades, Im kind of sad about that, my grandma is reading the second one so I have to wait to read it :/...I still really like the book though lol...but yeah I guess thats it, I may not blog tomorrow depending on how I feel I have a busy day, I have a test at 2 a final at 2:30, work 5-8:30, and by then I may just be ready to pass out, or maybe not, OH and I have been wearing the worst shoes possible so my feet have been hurting, but I went swimming and relaxed in the pool it actually helped my whole body feel relaxed and semi-normal, if you've never had a job standing for several hours you probably won't understand, I know I will get used to it eventually, but for now its painful, and its not actually painful during at all like I have no NEED to sit, but when Im done and I actually sit down I can feel how worn out my body is, and my feet hurt after...and I am completely ok with this...


Sometimes it is hard to be positive, but positivity makes situations a WHOLE lot better, taking a few minutes and praying also helps. Cheers with my invisible drink to staying positive even when it is really hard.

The First Day

I didn't toss and turn all night long like I expected which is a relief, I woke up at 7am, got ready and left my house at 8:10am and got to work (haha) at 8:20am so I was a little early, I waited for the manager she got there, and she showed me all of the basics, cashing in/clocking in/where everything is etc. it was pretty easy today, a lot of different people, and a lot of information to learn in one day I think that exhausted me more than the initial work, and standing for 6hours..She is so nice, and understanding, she helped me get the gist of everything and we only have a few more things to run through tomorrow, although there are a few things I want to go over tomorrow just to make sure I am prepared, she would like me to work Friday night alone..ehh I'm ok with it as long as I can get the hang of everything, and thursday night I am working with other co-workers so I can learn how to close, I am kind of nervous to be on my own, but excited at the same, speaking of nervous I wasn't nervous at all today really, or at least not much...easy-peasy, hahaha now for a shower, fifty shades, and sleep, one more early morning of training or at least I hope so, although I dont mind it at all :).

Practice makes perfect, soon enough I'll be a pro right?(lol) and she also said the KEY to the cash register is to take your time, exactly patience, like I mentioned yesterday..:)

Dreams Can Become A Reality, OR Just Pure Coincidence

TWO BLOGS IN ONE DAY!?!

haha yep...I think the title is an automatic give away if you happened to read my last blog...I got the job! (just like my dream I had last night, except it was the call not e-mail haha, so weird) And I start tomorrow...at 8:30am training I assume lol...so hopefully everything goes good, and I don't get too nervous, after I got the call I felt completely nervous, it was kind of pathetic...lol but I think I was just shocked and overwhelmed, you know?? because about 20 minutes later I just felt normal, and I don't really feel nervous now, I'm sure it won't kick in until I am about to go to sleep and I'll be tossing and turning, or until I am driving there..My first REAL REAL job..haha, I am so relived though, after a week of anticipating this call..finally right? now I won't have to talk about that all the time, hopefully I'll have some good stories once I start..Basically I am a Sales Associate at a gift shop at a hospital, and if you didn't read any blogs prior to this one, I have been wanting a job in the hospital for quite sometime since I am going to school to become an RT. Anyways as I said in my last blog this morning was a one in a million that I actually enjoyed getting up, so I guess I'm going to have to get used to getting up early for the week, hopefully just the week the manager who interviewed me said I'd be working evenings so...thats why I said hopefully lol.. anyways on a different note, I read two more chapters from Fifty Shades, and I am going to read some more soon, to help me calm down and hopefully put me to sleep so I can fall asleep without all of the tossing and turning, but I'm sure it won't work like that hahaha..but I guess I'll blog about my first day tomorrow :), I kind of feel like its going to be like the first day of school (grade school) you know the anxious feeling you get when you want to know if you're going to like the teacher(s), let alone the class...although I don't feel that way in college, so maybe I have out grown that or maybe its just different? haha, anyways I better get to the reading before it gets too late!!!


Patience is all it takes sometimes, dwelling, doubting, and worrying can leave you bitter, insecure, and unsure, it's better to just go with the flow if it is meant to be, it will be...if not there are better things out there for you, whether this applies to a job you're waiting to hear back about, the person you feel is the one, or just any everyday event that makes you feel impatient, be patient, and maybe you will be surprised when it actually happens, or a better opportunity will arise as you wait, and not dwell, doubt, or worry. :) 

Early Mornings..

Where do I even begin? I mean honestly I woke up early to sign up for the two classes that I can take, Bio and int. algebra...So I had this idea in my head that I would get the classes I wanted, word to the wise never PLAN on getting what you want when your college thinks its a good idea to let new students, and students with more than 30 credits to pick their classes before you, yes you the one who has been in college for almost a year now...ok so I am referring to myself you caught me clearly, but I will never plan on that again, I knew logically the online math I wanted was full, and I probably wouldn't get it, but last night I checked to make sure the Wednesday Bio was still available and it was...oh these morning critters (HAHAHA) got to it before I could...but you know everything happens for a reason and I am well aware I mention this in almost every single blog but it is in fact true, so it comes down to this... the Bio I wanted was full, and it was easy to pick another bio with a decent teacher, a warm thank you to ratemyprofessor.com I couldn't have picked one without you, lol seriously though I looked at probably 5-8 different professors available for two days a week around my schedule (although I don't really have much of a schedule -sighs-) and I picked the highest ranked one :) oh and yes it was available..haha so the hard part was finding a math professor I knew what I wanted, I wanted a class that  was one day a week, anytime really, and only used the program I like, its called Aleks incase you were wondering...lol but I found the perfect class and the professor got a pretty good rank, OH and by the way getting back to the 'everything happens for a reason' my mom who was lucky enough to sign up for classes last Monday, got the online int. algebra, so I was looking at it and it doesn't even use the program I like, Spring semester I failed a math class because it didn't have this specific program that I used with the first math I took in college, it helps out a lot honestly, so when I took the math in Spring it was like everything was completely foreign to me although math usually seems to be pretty foreign anyways but what a blessing in disguise right? I am actually pretty satisfied with the classes I have chosen :) so far at least... hahaha.. aside from the fact the that both classes are almost three hours long haha, and this is the first time I won't be taking any classes solely online, yikes.

So on a different note, I had a dream last night...that I got an e-mail from the job. Let me fill you in...I didn't give them my e-mail haha, it didn't ask.. but anyways so I got an e-mail saying I got the job blahblahblah, maybe this is a sign? maybe today they will call? or maybe the idea is still just chilling in the back of my mind hoping, but who knows...maybe she will call maybe she won't call.

On a different, different, note lol...I just finished my macadamia nut coffee, yes I had to mention specifically what kind, only because I talked about this coffee previously..but my day is going to consist of math homework, OH this is the last week of summer term incase I failed to mention this prior to now lol, I have my last chapter test, and my final this week? (I just looked at the calendar to check) yep its definitely this week, ugh so crammed but at least it will be over with right?, so I'll be doing that, and probably a pre-test (I know I can't seem to stay away from these, I just love them so much -sarcasm) and I will probably relax in bed afterwards and continue reading Fifty Shades...I feel so fancy abbreviating it like that ;) I am on chapter 14, which I think is half way through the first book, clearly its keeping my attention, and also my mind off of other things that I don't need to stress about!


~I am not much of a morning person, but I actually didn't mind getting up so early this morning, probably a one in a million kind of morning for me haha literally though, I am going to keep searching for my Mr.Grey, and I am going to continue to rely on hope, and knowing everything happens for a reason, as if I don't mention this everyday but honestly I am going to break if I don't find out about that job..soon, real soon.

Fifty shades of what??

Yes I finally gave in, and just started reading Fifty Shades Of Grey, last night..I like it honestly so far it is exactly this (in my opinion): an adult twist of Twilight, and porn. I imagine before the internet, and prior to dvds/vhs porn people read things of this nature...I am not at the crazy part yet either though maybe crazy isn't the word 'exotic' or 'kinky' right up my alley hahaha, so I mean hey if you enjoy reading something along those lines go for it, I like it just because I find it interesting, but then again I find anything interesting if it isn't involving me currently :/...and two pluses; #1 I haven't read a book for pleasure since 9th grade which happened to be Twilight, and #2 it gets me sleepy so its perfect for me right now since I have to get up early tomorrow to sign up for my classes so I get what I want..I know I know its joyful waking up at 7:30am :) haha..


Wishing I could meet a Mr.Grey right about now...handsome, knows how to please a woman, and rich in that case I wouldn't have to dwell on hearing back about this job, just kidding I really want this job, high hopes, sticking with my prayer, and wishful thinking...what a Sunday night back to reading this wonderful, pornified, shady book, oh and on another note, this is helping with my typical insomnia (I usually don't fall asleep until 2:30-3:00am, woohoo!) hahaha.

News, Diet vacay, Cheap at home beauty tips...

First off I want to say my thoughts and prayers are with anyone that was affected by the Aurora tragedy.


NEWS, I actually see why some people are so fearful of our world, the news constantly puts out the reality of the things that are going on in our world, but at the same time it can definitely affect some people who are fearful...some of the most joyful things we can do in our lives, or just the things we do on an everyday basis can all be changed in a second..I know we all know this but hearing it everyday on the news doesn't help, and I am actually just really realizing how petrifying the reality of it is, I wish  we didn't have news, just a local channel with weather, traffic, and local events or something along those lines (aka a perfect world lol) I know this will never happen and we have the choice to either or watch or not watch, but yesterday as I flipped through all of the channels it seemed like everywhere this was talked about, does it bother me? no...but what are the odds of someone who is fearful finding this and never wanting to go the movies now, never go on an airplane, never go to a college, a high school, on a ride, drive their car etc...anyways it just got me thinking, I mean the news is great to keep us informed, but even if I was to avoid watching the news for one week, if I log into my email (MSN) the news is there, or even on a social network...I don't know where I am going with this hahah. :)

Diet vacation?, yes I am on a diet vacation, my vacation ends tomorrow, and no I didn't over indulge or anything crazy, a few weeks back I read about a guy who lost weight would take little breaks so he wouldn't get too worn out of the same routine, so that is what I did! I haven't calculated my calories, or did my usual exercising, I just gave myself a mini vacay and I felt like I needed it most this week, with all of the stress from school, to STILL not hearing about this job, I know that doesn't sound like much stress lol but it is for me, well kind of...

Cheap at home beauty tips
I figured I'd talk about my four favorite at home beauty tips (most of the things are found around ones home)

Honey, and sugar scrub-
pretty self explanatory lol
-a little under 1/4 a cup of white sugar
-a teaspoon of honey
-AND you can add a little face wash or soap to it if needed
mix them together and scrub away, it always leaves my face super soft, nice, and exfoliated!


The baby powder trick-
Most people probably know about this if you run out of dry shampoo, or have an oily scalp you can take a little baby powder and rub it in to your roots and it absorbs the oil :).

Mixing nail polish-
This is also one that is common, mixing white nail polish with colors to make it more of a pastel, or lighter color..
all you need is white nail polish, another color, an old nail polish brush, and something to mix the two colors on (an old lid, or old Tupperware)
mix away and you have yourself a new color (especially right now pastels, and brights are in)

Wash away that chlorine-
Lol I may be the only person that feels like chlorine lingers in my hair even after I rinse and repeat in the shower after swimming, I googled and googled and I came across this easy step..add BAKING POWDER to your shampoo evidently it helps do something with the PH level, you can google it if you'd like but I tried it and I don't smell the chlorine smell I usually do which is a plus hahah!

WARNING: extremely random blog...HAHA

 So Basically...the things I will be talking about in the blog (just so I don't bore anyone) are:


-Time couldn't fly any faster (going against my word)
-Love Hate Relationship With My Hair
-Whats in my purse and WHY!?
-Easiest french manicure nails (ever) haha.




Time Couldn't Fly Any Faster (Going Against My Word)


Alright so it seems like in most of my blogs I mention how time flies so fast and it needs to slow down...well now I feel like it needs to quickly fast forward to THE CALL and MONDAY, well incase you didn't read my last blog I had a job interview on Monday, the girl told me she will be calling me after the background check comes in if everything is alright...and then Tuesday she told my brother they're just waiting for the background check, so its becoming mind boggling considering I have no criminal history I have never been arrested, and never even gotten a ticket, so I don't see why she hasn't called yet, although she did say it takes 48 hours but I am assuming she would get the background check today?....hmm I don't know its just really frustrating, and it seems like its taking so long I just want to know if I officially got the job :(! I'm sure everyone goes through things that seem to take forever, and I can't help but think what if something is wrong with my background check, I don't see anyway it could be but I guess anything is possible right? Or, I keep thinking in my mind maybe she doesn't work today, or some kind of excuse anyways I feel like I am stressing :/...but also to top everything off most people got to sign up for their Fall Term classes on Monday, well not me my sign u date is next freaking MONDAY :[, I am almost 100% sure that the classes I want are going to be filled (WOMMPWOMMPWOMMP) I am trying to stay as positive as I can but thats also super frustrating because if I can't take the two classes I need then its going to take more time to finish college.:/ PLEASE TIME HURRY UP JUST FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS, PLEASE AND THANK YOU! haha what if I wake up tomorrow and its Monday...haha just kidding ;{.



Love Hate Relationship With My Hair!


So basically I have a love hate relationship with my hair...haha cause I didn't already state this above, but anyways my hair is pretty long it's about three inches or so above my butt, haha so every time I brush my hair it always has "snarls" aka knots lol, I hate that so much but I love how long my hair is and the endless possibilities I can do with my hair, this is also really frustrating though lol, but I just wonder if anyone else has this problem, and if anyone ever straightens their hair at night -_- cause sometimes I do that just so its easier to do in the morning.. but anyways hmmm thats all I want to say about hair lol.


What's In My Purse And WHY!?


I always find it interesting to watch the youtube videos about whats in their purses, I don't know why either but anyways I am not going make a video but I am going to talk about it...so basically I have a MK large purse that I am currently using, and most of purses are rather large, or too small so I don't always carry a purse which I will talk about after I go over everything so...anyways in my purse;

.A brush- since my hair sucks and gets knotty lol.
.My reading glasses- now I am not blind and I don't need glasses these glasses are a prescription, but they are to strengthen a muscle so if I am out and about and have my purse I can just pull them out and look cool, while strengthening my weak eye muscle lol!
.My sunglasses- I want to say I have never invested in sunglasses EVER but these were totally worth it they are the chanel ones with the bow I got mine in white, I don't know the exact model name its been a while but they are the first pair of sunglasses I fell in love with (falling in the love with sunglasses? really haha) but they were totally worth it.
.Gum. gum is always a must in my purse just saying lol.
.A wristlet- Now you're probably thinking why BUT before I started using a purse part time I just used a wristlet because it fits my iPhone4, it fits my license, credit card, school id, cash, and lip balm, so on the days I don't want to carry a huge purse i can take that and its two in one, a wallet, and a wristlet? lol....
* Why I don't always a carry a purse...
Sometimes I think carrying a huge purse can be really annoying at times, personally but when I go to class I need something that can hold all of my stuff, or when I go to beach or pool, or even just going somewhere simple where I may need the things that I carry in my purse...if that makes sense? lol

Easiest French Manicure Nails (EVER)


So the other day I really wanted to try to do a french manicure, I have tried this previously and it never comes out good enough to keep on more than 10 minutes ahha.. so after watching five or so youtube tutorials I found one that seemed pretty good until I tried to do it hahh, basically you get tape and shape the tape round like half a circle, they did it on a circle cap and cut the edges, YEAH so when I tried this it didn't come out round at all, so I started thinking and I found the perfect half circle technique, lol which is the sides of bandaids ok so most bandaids are rounded right? so I took five bandaids and cut the sides placed them on my nails, took my white nail polish did two coats, let it dry, took off the bandaids and they came out pretty nice (not perfect) but nice lol, so then I took a nude/pink color and put it under the white let it dry, and put a clear top coat on and it looks pretty good like I said not perfect but Im sure it can be perfect with practice, and its pretty simple :D. (I have had this on my nails for like three days now, much better than 10 minutes HAHA)

Yesterday/today update..

Alright..there was no reason (well maybe there was a reason that I just don't know) why I didn't blog yesterday, I actually should have but...anyways I don't know where to start I guess I'll start by saying I have been looking for a job at the hospital for several months now...and applying for many many jobs and not getting any replies, my brother (who works at the hospital actually both of my brothers do) brought me home an application on Saturday for a part time job at the hospitals gift shop, so yesterday (Monday) I went up to the hospital and turned in the application, the girl interviewed me on the spot, and basically said if my background check comes back clear (which it will..considering I've never had any criminal background etc) she will call me and I will have the job (I am all smiles as I type this) so I should be hearing back from her by Thursday and I should have a job at the hospital FINALLY, and the hours are perfect for my schedule with school, and everything (but let me not jinx myself)...haha so yesterday was a really really good day in all honesty it seemed like everywhere I went I didn't have to wait, and things just went really well :), so I am pretty excited still lol, but today was kind of a mellow day, nothing bad happened I just kind of felt like people were staring at me when I went to the store do you ever have those days?...and you kind of feel like oh do I look weird, is there something on my face, is my eyeliner running, is my hair sticking up? you know self conscience...but aside from that I have never been a Walmart fan anyways, the prices are pretty good but the Walmart I go to always seems packed, and they only have a few registers open, and you should know how Walmart is...and lets not forget the parking..anyways lol I am not complaining I am still just overly excited.. but I picked up another baby lips, haha since I have been wearing the fruit punch one pretty much everyday (the pink one) so I wanted to get the peach (nude/peachy) colored one so I can alternate from pink to neutral on the days that I don't wear lipstick...and we also needed shampoo we don't usually buy drugstore shampoo, we usually just buy the gigantic Red Ken shampoo and conditioner set when its on sale, because it lasts for months...but anyways there are two drugstore brands that we really like..one being John Frieda, and the other being Pantene, my mom had a coupon for $3.00 off of two Pantene products and I needed hairspray so it worked out well considering both products were like $3.30 so it was like buying one of the items for $.30 haha...then we just got some food products, my mom and I have been on a coconut fruit bar high (lol) we love them, and we have tried two brands (Whole Fruit, and Edy's) but today we saw Blue Bell had them so we couldn't resist trying those as well, and I grabbed a lime flavored one too, I have been wanting to try a lime fruit bar, and it was also nice that the Blue Bell ones are a dollar cheaper!! If you haven't tried a fruit bar you are missing out especially if you like coconut, lol...so I am going to have a good night tonight eat a fruit bar, while watching Love In The Wild (my current favorite show) it was actually one of my favorite shows last summer as well, NBC seems to know what I love to watch cause I always enjoy watching 'The Voice' which a new one comes on sometime this Fall I think woohoo lol! But anyways I am going to end this blog here, just because I could go on and on about shows, food products, and other unnecessary things lol :).


I believe everything happens for a reason, a reason why I never got a call back from any of the jobs I applied for, a reason why I just so happened to get interviewed on the spot, a reason why people stare..just a reason for everything, and a reason why sometimes it seems like we have to wait for what feels like forever to get to where we are supposed to be in life, whether it has something to do with a job, a relationship, whatever it may be I really do believe there is a reason for everything!! So don't ever just give up, or put yourself down because sometimes things take time, and things seem to happen just at the right time, when we need it the most!

Not an exciting weekend

Honestly it has been a really boring weekend, nothing exciting has happened except the fact that I got a 95 on my test, but I have also been busy if that makes sense, anyways I still haven't gotten back into routine but tomorrow I am :) I am so excited, which sounds stupid but I miss it (haha)...but there really isn't much to say I am calling it an early night, because I have a busy day tomorrow, go figure, so hopefully tomorrows blog is a bit more exciting, hopefully...


I rarely ever put boring, and busy in the same sentence, unless its finals week, which is coming up soon HAHAHA so I guess I'm just preparing...:) not to mention the fact that summer term is over in two weeks, but Fall term begins less than a month after that :[....






sweeeet dreams.

Under $50

Top-H&M corset top $20

Shorts- Dorthy Perkins $19

Shoes- Wet Seal $3.99

Ring-Forever 21 $3.80

Grand total-$ 46.80 

Other items;

Bow studded sandals- Forever 21 $17

Bracelet- Forever 21 $6.80

Clear bow sandals- Endless.com $40

The Little Black Dress

Once a week I am going to start posting an outfit under $50 from polyvore.com :) starting today...I am also posting MY 'the little black dress' guide, and obviously the outfit under $50, which finding a top, bottoms, shoes, and an accessory wasn't as easy as it sounds hahah. (ALSO, I am going to post a day to night outfit soon.)


The Little Black Dress Guide; (note it isn't perfect but it works for me!)

Sometimes nothing seems to go according to plan

Today was one of those days, and so was yesterday...That's probably why I didn't blog yesterday. I have spent all day yesterday (on and off) and all morning/after noon doing a math pre-test, I was supposed to go take the test today, and I went, but of course the system was down and everything just went downhill, I haven't gotten on the treadmill in now three days because I have been so busy, so I have to make up the exercises (burn as many calories as I would have if I did the tready hahah) at night before bed, and it seems a million times harder than just getting on the treadmill, but it takes half the time :D, its just jumping roping for 10mins, jumping jacks for 10mins, and running in place for 10mins, it actually burns a little more than what I do on the treadmill, but I do it cause it cuts 30 mins off...but anyways days actually are starting to seem like they are going faster, I know I know I already mentioned this in another blog..BUT I mean somedays it feels like what I did yesterday is what I did that day...if that makes sense lol...I just want a normal day AGAIN honestly..and I hope it starts tomorrow, coffee, and the treadmill..like I said its a million times harder or so it seems to do these workouts at night, not only because they are harder, and not only because it feels like 10 mins takes an hour lol, but also because I am finding it difficult to actually push myself..like in the morning I can just do it without having to push myself...but on a completely different topic, I have been really wanting to do something different with my hair, I knew I didn't want anything too drastic like I didn't want to go blonde, or chop off my hair, but I wanted something...so last summer my friend cut my bangs for me, but obviously with time they grew out SOO today I decided to cut my bangs, I used to always cut my bangs in 9th and 10th grade, and I am so glad I haven't lost my touch they came out perfect, or at least perfect for me..lol I haven't had an actual professional haircut since 10th grade..I am now going on my second year of college HAHA, and the last time I got a trim was in 11th grade by my friend, so I even thought about trimming the ends but then decided against it just incase I'd regret it, but I am still thinking about it, maybe next week? lol! But anyways, I guess its time to go workout :( if I can push myself a little further...


Sometimes nothing seems to go according to plan, but there is a reason for everything, a reason things don't always workout, a reason why nothing seems to last forever, a reason why somethings just don't seem fair. And sometimes we need a push to get anything done, just that "ummph" to either workout, go to college, or even just get out of bed....Also sometimes we need a change even if it isn't a huge change, whether its a personal change, a lifestyle change, or just a traditional at home fresh bang cut hair style change HAHAHA... :)

Breaking routine/Dreams

I really don't like mentioning diet in every single blog (hahah) but honestly ever since I have been on my diet I have had a really workable routine, get up, drink my coffee, get on the treadmill for an hour..but today I had other things I had to do..personally I like getting the whole workout ordeal out of the way first thing in the morning, so breaking my routine really sucks, but anyways, I am replacing my Saturday with today, usually I skip out on working out on Saturday just because I am busy on Saturdays, and all of that fun stuff lol but whatever, I still got some exercise in the pool, and after I post this Im gonna do my extra workouts (crunches, push ups, squats, lunges etc.) On a different note...today was pretty boring, woke up late, lunch at my aunts house, homework, swimming, MORE homework, and even more homework after I workout and shower...I am so glad I only have a few more weeks until Summer term is over :) but that just means I get a few weeks off before Fall term (oh the joy I feel) so basically I don't have much to say, I didn't have any sky inspiration today (hahaha) although, I have been having those really bad dreams, where it feels like its so real, and it just so happens to be something you would actually enjoy in life, like perhaps ALOT of money..hmm and you wake up to only realize it was just a dream, (haha) I don't know I guess they aren't so bad, but I have been having them for quite a while, I mean most dreams feel real to me anyways, but these actually seem like real (excuse me, while I try to explain something via internet that won't make any sense lol) but I don't know dreams are weird...I can't imagine not having dreams, but some dreams are really intense, like the dreams where it feels like you can see your room perfectly and you know you are dreaming but you can't move, or make any noise, I always try to wake myself up cause it freaks me out, and then I find it hard to go back to sleep..(knocks on wood) I haven't had one in a really long time, thankfully so I hope I'm not like "jinxing" myself! But anyways I guess thats it for now... :)!!

Quick shopping, current cheap fav eyeshadow look...etc.

So today I had to go the store to get coffee creamer, and while I was there I decided to pick up a few things that I needed (maybe not needed but wanted haha) whenever Revlon came out their lip butters I had bought one, and I really liked it, I don't always like to wear lipstick but I don't like bare lips either so it was a nice light tint that worked, but soon after 'Baby Lips' came out, everyone raved about them but I wasn't going to give in to it, but here I am...months and months later trying it out for the first time, and to be honest I think it is almost the exact same as the lip butters, BUT it does have a better scent to it (haha) not that the lip butters didn't have a good scent but who doesn't like a fruity smell, anyways so I wasn't actually planning on getting that...I actually only went to the makeup isle for primer since I ran out, I only wear primer when I feel like my pores are larger than normal but since I ran out I felt it'd be safer to just pick up some while I was already at the store, I was using the L'oreal magic primer (or whatever lol) but the first primer I ever used was Hard Candy..I liked it especially for the amount you get and the price, so I decided to just get that again.. And for the last pretty much unnecessary purchase I got a different flavor K-Cup, I started using a keurig about a year ago, and before that I always just drank regular coffee like foldgers, or dunkin' donuts no special flavor, so when I got the keurig I went on a K-cup spree I bought a bunch of different kinds and one of them being van houtte chocolate raspberry truffle, instantly it became my favorite..I wasn't an advide coffee drinker so it lasted me several months, like I literally just ran out of those a month ago, so I wanted to try just regular french vanilla because i've been having a cup of coffee every morning since starting my diet, and I really like the french vanilla but I have been wanting to try these...

and I ran across them today and took advantage of buying them, I am glad too cause I had a cup when I got home since I didn't have any creamer this morning, and I actually really like this flavor its kind of comforting? if that makes sense.. 

On a different note...I think I have officially found my perfect 'smokey eye', I have always liked the look of having a smokey eye but during the day I don't like to have a really dark smokey eye (personally), so I was going through some of my make up and came across an old CoverGirl quad..its called ice princess and looks like this...

so basically I use 'Foxy' from the naked 2 palette (any cream matte color works) all over my lid, near the tear duct area, and as a highlight for my brow bone, then I take the darkest color from the quad above and dab it on my crease (not a lot) just enough to work with so it won't be too dark, then I take the third color over (the lightest) and blend that in the crease and take my matte cream color and go over it till its blended really well, and then I add a little liquid eyeliner to my top lid, a little dark black eyeliner to my waterline, and some mascara..it looks smokey but nudey (thats not a word haha) and neutral :D.

But anyways when I was leaving the store today..it was so gross out really dark and cloudy, and just nasty but in between a few clouds the blue sky was coming through and it reminded me of how even through the ugliest/worst/bad times their can still be beauty/good thats hiding behind..(or on a more personable level no matter how bad times can get their usually is an amazing out come just hiding behind a few clouds) and with that being said...I will end this blog here. 

Time Flies/Exercise/Florida Heat/Swimming...

I know I am 8 days late, but I still can't believe it's already July. It's crazy that I will have been in college a whole year next month, somedays it seems like I just signed up and other days it seems like I have been in college for years (hahaha) however..I am glad and sad about it at the same time, I am glad that I am getting closer to finishing college, but at the same time I just want to tell life to slow down just for a few minutes..It's so weird because I haven't even had a chance to enjoy this summer I am taking two summer classes, ok so one is already finished but the other one is online and consumes a lot of my spare time, I have only been to the beach 2-3 times this year :[ and if I didn't already mention I live in Florida...But I am sure the next thing I know it will be next summer, and we only have one more official month of heat although its still warm in September, and October and then it will be my birthday :[ it seems like I just had my 18th birthday just a few months ago..and I am turning 20 this year that is beyond crazy to me..considering I feel like I never even turned 19 lol..anyways my point is where does time go? honestly..I wish someone had the answer!! However back to the Florida weather I went to go get my hour of exercise on the treadmill and in the past few weeks I haven't sweated as much as I did today :/ I am going the same pace and doing the same amount of time..so I was a little confused until I stepped outside to realize its about a trillion degrees out (ok maybe that was an exaggeration) but thats what it feels like..its actually 93 out, which means its harder for the house to cool off...If you live in Florida, or ever decide to move to Florida I advise you to make sure you have some sort of access to any swimmable body of water, a pool, a lake, the beach whatever it is, I wish I had a pool in my backyard but since I don't I am thankful my aunt has a pool, which is where I am headed after I post this. That will seriously be the only thing I look for whenever I get a house above anything it MUST have a pool..speaking of pools if you are looking for great, easy, calorie burning exercises, doing 30 minutes of light moderate laps in a pool you burn more calories then you do on a treadmill at 2.5 pace for an hour..so if you did that for an hour you would burn more than double the calories from a treadmill (obviously, I like how I am stating the obvious) anyways...after last nights post of ranting about snacking at night I stepped on the scale and dropped a pound..real motivating to stop eating at night (haha) but I am going to try and commit myself starting tonight...but I guess it's time to go get my swim on lmao.


-Gladly, sadly, whatever it may be..life moves quick so cherish each and every moment you can, even if you're stuck doing homework, or in college because these moments you may never have again, and maybe one day you will regret not cherishing them..or then again maybe not, who knows, you never know until it happens, and thats why I am leaving this post with a nice quote...

"Time is like a river you cannot touch the same water twice,because the flow that has passed will never pass again.Enjoy every moment of life…."

The Reality Of Dieting

Dieting can be one of the hardest challenges in ones life...its summer and I swear every summer I go on a diet and they're always different..it's funny though because I am going on my third week of this diet and I have already lost a few pounds to keep me encouraged..but I feel like I have hit a bump in the road I have been trying not to snack at night but the last few nights I have snacked :[ I actually feel really guilty..so this week I am attempting to commit to not snacking at night and see what happens this week. Diets always seem so easy the first week, and become so difficult after that...especially working out, but (knocks on wood) I think this could be the real deal, aha, like I actually think I am going to stick this one out or at least I believe I can..It's kind of disappointing that if I would have stuck out the diet from last year I would probably be exactly where I am aiming for now, but on a more positive note, myfitnesspal app has become my current best friend (sarcasm) but really it is a good way of monitoring your calories, and workouts which I like a lot...Another thing that has kept me encouraged is I have already had a few people say I look like I am toning up, which is always a plus..my grandpa made a comment today which really made me think..he said "people always get discouraged because they think a miracle will happen over night, and when it doesn't happen they just give up" and he wasn't even referring to dieting..but that is the reality of my dieting, I get discouraged when I don't see results in a week or two so I just give up thinking I put all this effort into trying to have NO results, but obviously seeing results takes time and thats why I am making it a priority to stick this out. :)

A little encouragement now and then is all we really need to keep us motivated, or at least me. :)

This Should Be Interesting....

Since making a few minor ,and major changes in my life I decided I would add in blogging, something I have never done nor ever really thought about, but I think this will be pretty interesting. It's a little awkward (the thought that someone may read this...or perhaps not haha) but I guess I will be blogging about my daily life, and fashion which should be interesting to look back on, eventually. I AM HOPING THIS BREAKS THE ICE FOR BLOGGING.  Time flies...its already 3:38am and instead of sleeping I am creating a blog, I am almost 100% sure I have a sleeping disorder, amongst many other things.. I guess that's where I will leave my first blog.

:)